Hello, my name is Jeff chew.
This is a place for me to express my opinions, share stuffs so on, whether you like it or not.
i do not seek for support or attention whatsoever.

*19 yo, NYP student
*Ordinary person with a tendency of being unusually quiet
*Straightforward.
*Introverted.
*Temperamental at times
*Loyal fan of Manchester United.
*Pet lover.
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Can't believe its been months since i've started to blog.
I wonder are there any readers left....

Talk about what's happening recently.....
Ever since god knows when, I have been extremely troubled by school work and personal issues.
At one time, I thought of skipping lessons, ignoring calls, SMSes, messages and lock myself up at home.
I also told myself that since I despise programming and couldn't even code a program, I should just quit school instead.
So one day, I looked for my mentor Yarny....I explained to her my plans and intentions for the future (which is to change course/go NS).

Her opinion was that my decision to withdraw from course was rather surprising,
she then went on to explain the posibilities which might happen after making this decision, and she encouraged me to make the wiser choice which is to continue studying.

Although most of the things she said was obviously true, I still couldn't make up my mind.

Because for me, there's no way I can pass programming modules without any form of interest/motivation to work hard whatsoever,
besides, this course is not suitable for self-learners like me who prefer to discover things on his own instead of relying on being taught by someone else.
And yet if I choose to continue studying, I might end up struggling and suffering there, even if I ended up getting a diploma, my gpa still reflect badly on me instead.

On the other hand.... if I choose to quit, although the burden would be gone, I could possibly end up without having any diploma.




Till now, nothing has been decided yet.
But one thing is for sure, I'm in for a very difficult and important decision-making ....

This thing is driving me nuts.
Can someone give me suggestions? or maybe some help needed?




Seriously if there's a way for me to escape myself from making such decisions, I definitely would do everything to make it happen.