Silence

2011-12-08T04:41:00.000-08:00

I think i'll take back the words written in the previous post.
It's not like she will even realize it haha.

If I don't let go of it, this might even become a 1-sided "relationship" with me trying to please her and get her attention, while she can't be bothered.
Come on, I don't have all day please.......

2011-12-02T05:46:00.001-08:00

I hope she is okay

2011-11-13T03:35:00.000-08:00

Why do i have to live my life just to go through all these mental torture like that?

It's fucking bad enough when things never turn out to be better no matter how much effort i try to make it happen.
But to make it even worst, i have all kinds of jerks trying to pester me with their sarcastic mocking, and unreasonable behavior.

Can anyone imagine how it feels like to be on the suffering end of some ignorant, uncaring actions of other people?
Besides, if it happens at a time when everything in your life has already fall apart, from studies, friendship, financial problems, what will u feel?

Sighs.....

Again and again, I'm really tempted by the thought trying to shut myself out and escape from this world.

I'm fucking sick of life here.

2011-11-02T07:37:00.001-07:00

Sighs...
The more I care, the more disappointed I am.

2011-10-24T05:04:00.000-07:00

What a crappy and depressing weekend I had.
Saturday, I spent the whole day lying at the bed, thinking and worrying about what's gonna happen the next few weeks, and not even once I've stepped out of my house.
But that's not enough....

I've received a bad news that one of my friend's friend who's a regular volunteer at the mdm wong dog shelter, had committed suicide after suspected of being a loanshark runner.

It was published in the news a few days ago.
http://news.omy.sg/News/Local+News/Story/OMYStory201110211620-285062.html

It really shocked me though. I met him before during my first trip to the mdm wong dog shelter, while since I'm new there, he introduced me to the surroundings, helped me to familiarize with the dogs, and we bring those dogs out for a walk. We had a little chat sometimes.

He doesn't look like the person who would do such things, in fact he's quite cheerful, easy-going, kind-hearted, and he had a passion for volunteering. I guess monetary problems forced him to change his ways, which eventually lead him to trouble.

Sighs..

On a side note, I understand that I was exaggerating in the previous post which mentioned that "I've been through more mental obstacles than any other ordinary people walking in the streets"

Even though it sounds too ridiculous to be true, I did actually suffer some form of stress/anxiety-related disorders. Over the past few years, I hv difficulties going out and meet people, it just makes me feel extremely stress out, and sometimes I couldn't manage my thoughts at all,
because of that I become extremely quiet and self-withdrawn.

People might think I'm a silent emo or a freak, its not. I'm still sane and able to do things, just that my condition makes things difficult for me to accomplish.
Right now I'm taking medicine to cope with it.

Despite all of that, I'm glad that I have my own friends who understand this condition well and give me emotional support. Without them, I might be dropping out of school and become a social hermit now.

2011-10-17T03:49:00.000-07:00

Back to school.
Evrything is back to business as usual again.
What's new?

I rather lock myself at home doing the things I wanna do, than having to go out and experience the same unwanted feelings again.

It's making me terribly ill.

Please don't tell me these are symptoms of monday blues, cuz its not. I'm different from any of u normal human beings out there.
In my whole life I've faced plenty of emotional/mental obstacles than any ordinary people walking in the streets.
I don't enjoy being around with people who are different from me, in fact I stick around with people who understand, cares.

Seriously I fucking detest people who only cares about social status and this world is full of them. I rather live in my own world and stay far far away from them, even if it makes me look like an outcast or a loser.

Yea, that's all for the rant today.
Sick and tired of facing this fucking society.

2011-10-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

Dear god,
please let me die asap.
I don't care what happens.

2011-10-02T08:24:00.000-07:00

The day will come when Xanax becomes my best friend.

2011-09-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

Gonna work soon w00ts!

But I hope it wont be too exhausting or too boring. Because the job that i have found requires me to work Mon to Fri (12noon-9pm), and Sat (12-4pm), which means 3/4 of my week gone.

Maybe the only good thing about working is perhaps I'm free from hearing all the whining and quarreling in my house, and I get paid some amount of $$ doing it.

Now the only thing left for me is to wait to be shortlisted into the job. And when I do, I'll do my best to work, and forget all the crappy memories.

The next thing I'mma do, is to try to engage in more social life with friends and stay away from the "negativity magnet" known as my FAMILY as much as possible.

I'm not trying to be disrespectful, in fact during most of my time spent with them, I've been hearing way too much negative crap, like at times they just love to shower each other with criticisms, and pinpoint each others faults, then complain at each other. There just dont seem to be anything interesting and positive at all.

Not even once I have ever hear them crack a single joke. It's just THAT dull and boring.

Someday, I hope I better find the right group of friends to hang around, chill, chit chat, play lan games, movies, cycling.....At least a simple outing would made my day.

2011-09-06T09:31:00.000-07:00

Sighs...This holiday is gonna be a depressing one i suppose.
Everyone seems to be fading away.
They're either too busy, or just don't really bother.

Maybe I should find my own happiness too.
These past few days, I've been spending some time at the virtualand lan shop playing games, surfing internet.
It wasn't fun or exciting, but at least I managed to kill some time doing things I like, instead of staying at home bored to death.

Well, other than that, I hv nothing else to look forward to.

Facing the computer screen seems to be the source of happiness for me at the moment.

2011-08-31T22:22:00.001-07:00

I wonder who's still reading my blog now hmmm?

2011-08-31T04:15:00.000-07:00

Year 2 sem 1 is over!

Overall, it hasn't been a good sem for me though, there's plenty of downs more than ups, and I'm lucky to scrape through everything.
Today I'm having my last paper which is DSTR, and all I can say is, phew.....

I only started my preparation for this module few days back, and during those days, I attended remedial and Q&A with Ms Lim to clarify my doubts. Good thing that it helped me a lot, because I could've lost plenty marks if I hadn't ask any questions.

During the exam, I nearly pass out, because I didn't ate enough and end up suffering from low blood glucose symptoms. Those 2 hours, I experienced cold sweats, hunger, weakness, anxiety and confusion. It affected me a bit though, but I still managed to focus and do most of the questions without much problems.

This isn't the first time it has happened, last week I overslept for the OOAD paper and end up skipping breakfast just to rush and take the exam.
During the paper, my mind was in half sleep half awake mode, I couldn't organise my thoughts well, and I even made some careless and stubborn decisions in the process.
My performance was horrible consider that the paper wasn't meant to be difficult.
Really hope that i'm able to scrape through with a pass.

Anyway on the brighter side of things,
I'm finally done with school until october!

Screw everything else, i'm gonna sleep all the way until school starts. (although that isn't possible because i have to work a part time job someday)

2011-08-26T23:27:00.000-07:00

Don't tell me this guy is going to be our president, please.

I really hope my fellow singaporeans will wake up and choose someone who will stand up for the rights of our country, someone who question the government's policy when needed,
NOT someone who's a PAP yes-man, or an ass-kisser who agrees to everything the government says.

Besides, our former president, naTHAN, who's also another PAP yes-man, does nothing significant and STILL became one of the highest paid president in the world.

Please vote wisely.

Personally, if I'm able to vote, the choice is either gonna be Tan Cheng Bock, or Tan Jee Say. Cus from what I see from both of their rallies, they really deserved to be president, especially TCB.

Just awesome,
I liked what he said about Tony Tan.

2011-08-21T05:37:00.001-07:00

I came across this from a forum, interesting read about the history of president candidate Tony Tan.

When TT is Education Minister: He opened floodgates for foreign students.

When TT is Education Minister: He objected to establishing a 3rd university until Nanyang Technology Institute had been set up fully to become a full University (now NTU). In 1998, When asked if measures would be put in to protect Singapore students from competition "There is no way in which you are going to be able to protect either Singaporeans or Singapore because we are a small country."

When TT is Defence Minister: His son defer 12 yrs of NSF and became a research scientist (what vocation is that?) after he came back to serve.
And read this:
http://www.temasekreview.com/2011/08/23/expose-5-tony-tans-other-two-sons-served-in-relaxed-ns-vocations-though-they-were-combat-fit/

When TT is Minister for Trade and Industry: Oppose against building MRT.
Source: http://newspapers.nl.sg/Digitised/Article.aspx?articleid=straitstimes19811217.2.94.5

When TT is GIC chairman: Lose how many billions of our HARD EARNED MONEY?

When TT is SPH chairman: Our media ranked 154th.

All the above are proven FACTS.

So guys, please DON'T VOTE TONY TAN JUST BECAUSE HE'S THE ONLY FAMOUS ONE OUT OF THE OTHER 3 TANS.

And please don't be brainwashed by the 154th media, they are just out there to sing all kinds of praises about phony tan and anything that's related to the PAP govt, but in fact, when all the bad news surfaces, they swept and hide everything under the carpet to prevent the government from looking bad.

In conclusion:

NEW MEDIA FTW.

2011-08-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

I could be a little bit late for this one, but this is worth a post.

Wow...Who the hell this PAP MP Penny Low think she is? Everybody is singing the national anthem and she is busy occupying herself with her phone.
Does being a PAP MP gives her the priviledge to do that huh? Her iPhone is more important than the country?

And based on her actions, it just PROVES that she obviously put herself FIRST before the COUNTRY.

Worst of all, Mediacorp saved her reputation by removing that part from being shown on the TV replay of NDP.

How pathetic it is.
Singapore is starting to become like North Korea soon.

2011-08-12T04:36:00.000-07:00

I missed my primary school and ITE life....

Those two brings back plenty of fond memories....

I remember back in primary school, it is much easier to make close friends and bond together like one big family, everybody seemed very passionate too.
Back then, there were plenty of crazy fun things we used to do, like playing with erasers, toy guns, card games, loiter around the void deck playing block catching, hunting spiders and bring them back home as pets.

As for life in ITE, although not as smooth and fun as primary school, it still brought back some entertaining and funny moments.
Back then most of the school time are spent in playing DOTA, hero siege, fight of characters with classmates... 4v4, 5v5 wtfmode, it was damn fun. Apart from that, we also make fun of each other, cracking inside jokes about some retarded boy, the fat auntie with saggy boobs, and mdm seet's boobs that look like a volcano, the professor X joke, and many many more lol......I also kinda like those malay troublemakers playing and making noise at the back of our class. Although they sound irritating sometimes, at least it's better than the boredom I'm suffering in my current poly life.

Back to the present, it just seems like everything is all about projects, grades, marks.....Just feel so dull and meaningless.. It's also hard to make close friends there, especially at the class I'm in. Not trying to complain or what, but I feel that it's very hard to bond with the current classmates, and furthermore some of them doesn't seem very accepting to certain people who aren't in their clique.

Perhaps it seems to be about making use of certain people when they need them, but ignore them when they lost their "flavour or usefulness".

But so far, the closest friend I've made is that Jun Xin guy, he's treating me very well recently, like a brother or something, maybe he's sincere afterall, not only that, he's an honest and hardworking guy, just that I feel he's a bit too "conservative and goody goody".

Well...So far I'm half way through poly life, another 1 1/2 years to go, I wonder will I pull through without the help and support of anybody, furthermore, there are some $$ issues I faced which nearly forced me on my way out of poly.

I wonder what's gonna happen.....

2011-08-10T03:30:00.000-07:00

I just don't get it.

After days of rushing, and sleepless nights, still, I couldn't make it through thanks for the fact that all my hard work has been robbed!

Seriously I thought everything is settled after making sure that my program is working well and error-free,
but then again due to some indecisiveness and last-minute work by my group,
I was forced to make changes at the very last minute, and eventually I have to present a 60% finished work.

I'm not trying to blame anyone, but I feel that everything has to be decided beforehand, instead of doing it at the very last minute.
Furthermore I don't feel being a part of the group at all, I'm kinda like a stranger or outcast to them,
and then, at the end of the day, every single part of the project was done by them, and I don't get to do anything to it.

I just hope they don't accuse me for "pushing all the work to them", because I clearly DIDN'T.
If they couldn't finish the work themselves, why not choose to seek help from group mates?
Why whine about having to deal with stressful workload and blaming your group mates for pushing the work to you, when instead you could've share the burden with them?
It ain't smart to take matters into your own hands you know?

Besides I suspect that someone in my group has some sort of legitimate grudge with me or something,
me and her/him used to get along very well at the start(not the leader), but when this semester comes, we don't even talk at all, not even once.

Seems like it's weird that I might have offended someone without even intending to do it.

This is really one of the reasons why I don't like poly life and the class I'm in. Everything just felt so fake, besides there are full of gossipers and bitches who would stab anybody in the back without them knowing.

2011-08-04T05:00:00.001-07:00

Can't believe I managed to finish my project just on time.
But this wouldn't be possible without the help of someone.

I would like to thank my sister's friend kaixiong who helped me laid out the codes for jtable,
and most importantly I have to thank my long time buddy Chee wah for helping me debugging the program.

I really appreciate the amount of time they dedicated in teaching and helping me solving the problems.

Anyway, what a tough week this has been. I lost plenty of sleep due to stress, mood and anxiety issues. This problem has forced me to increase my dosage of mood stabilizers. And I'm taking prozac though...

Sighs...My family arent supportive enough. My parents are not getting along with each other, my sisters are busy with their stuffs. And I'm being forced to settle the medical bills myself again. Sighs, I really wish I can quit school and start work sometime. School is giving me a lot of headache especially this IT course, furthermore I'm not coping well with my studies, and money issues are beginning to give me headache.

2011-07-27T04:13:00.000-07:00

My brand new hair color.

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At first I wanted to dye my hair because I find the original black colour too generic and common, besides my hair is too thick and black, it starting to look bad on me.

But seriously though, I didn't expect my hair to turn out like this, it just reeks of "gangster/ahbeng" to most people. I hope they don't mistaken me.
The initial colour I wanted was light brown, but it ends up shiny bronze which kinda look weird on me i guess....

2011-07-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

Can't believe its been months since i've started to blog.
I wonder are there any readers left....

Talk about what's happening recently.....
Ever since god knows when, I have been extremely troubled by school work and personal issues.
At one time, I thought of skipping lessons, ignoring calls, SMSes, messages and lock myself up at home.
I also told myself that since I despise programming and couldn't even code a program, I should just quit school instead.
So one day, I looked for my mentor Yarny....I explained to her my plans and intentions for the future (which is to change course/go NS).

Her opinion was that my decision to withdraw from course was rather surprising,
she then went on to explain the posibilities which might happen after making this decision, and she encouraged me to make the wiser choice which is to continue studying.

Although most of the things she said was obviously true, I still couldn't make up my mind.

Because for me, there's no way I can pass programming modules without any form of interest/motivation to work hard whatsoever,
besides, this course is not suitable for self-learners like me who prefer to discover things on his own instead of relying on being taught by someone else.
And yet if I choose to continue studying, I might end up struggling and suffering there, even if I ended up getting a diploma, my gpa still reflect badly on me instead.

On the other hand.... if I choose to quit, although the burden would be gone, I could possibly end up without having any diploma.

Till now, nothing has been decided yet.
But one thing is for sure, I'm in for a very difficult and important decision-making ....

This thing is driving me nuts.
Can someone give me suggestions? or maybe some help needed?

Seriously if there's a way for me to escape myself from making such decisions, I definitely would do everything to make it happen.

2011-04-14T23:55:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since I start blogging, maybe its time I'll start to do it on a regular basis.
The reason why I've posted up the link in my msn is to let people know the existence of my blog, along with my thoughts and feelings that I've expressed here.
Besides, it would be boring to keep this blog to myself though.

There are plenty of reasons why I like to blog:
1)Share my experiences.
2)Express my thoughts and feelings towards a certain subject.
3)Getting things out of my chest which I couldn't do so in real life.
4)I prefer to express myself by writing blogs, instead of talking/chatting.

The things I would never blog:
1)Camwhoring.
2)Long and boring life-stories.
3)CSB.
4)Narcissistic BS.

If you're a stranger to me in real life or have no relation to me whatsoever,
I would advice you not to read this blog because my aim is to express myself to people who are interested to get to know me.

And if you wanna view this blog for other purposes, I suggest you go elsewhere.

2011-04-12T06:47:00.000-07:00

It was awesome watching united going through to the semis. Glory MUFC!
Poor chelsea though, they have started a 50 million torres in this match and he still couldn't find his goalscoring form back to justify his price tag.
Besides, I wonder if his chelsea teammates were messing around with him or something, because it seems like the whole team doesn't wanna include torres in the match. He looks kinda out of place compared to other players.

But anyway, if I were Ancelotti, I would have started drogba instead.
Good luck to Chelsea though, I still think they could've been successful without that money faced russian tycoon. They might as well made him the manager of Chelsea or something.

My life doesn't seem to move on one bit. Guess it never will either.
I have tried ways to get myself in touch with the world, but there way are too many limitations.
I think I can never perform to suit to anyone's tastes at all.

Maybe it's time to torture and fade myself into obscurity.

2011-03-22T01:50:00.000-07:00

Perhaps you would be curious about why am I behaving this way, or why I'm like that.

First of all, I'm sick of getting denied and being made used of, even when I bother to make an effort to care. Some people just can't be pleased.

Second, I feel extremely uncomfortable trying to be someone that I'm not.
Actually I was a talkative, nice, friendly person, but that's 10 years ago.
Now I'm opposite of what I used to be.
But some people aren't too happy with that, they began to shove me aside, treating me like a social outcast.
Although I tried ways to get myself accepted again, it didn't work out too well,
at times I even end up having to change myself completely in order to accommodate to someone.
I realized that it was impossible, so I gave up.

Third, people are fake. They would rather watch someone in deep suffering and pain, than helping them.
And besides, it would be too much to ask them putting themselves into someone's shoes, because they're too busy entertaining themselves.

Lastly, people are obsessed about SOCIAL STATUS.
Friendships? Relationships? all are fake. In fact, they would rather find someone "worthy/cool" enough to boost their popularity and ego,
but when it comes to situations where they have no one to go to, they become insecure.
And besides, it's funny that they tend to side with the "cool/popular crowd" so much that they avoid the "introverted/uncool" ones like they're bunch of losers.
Sad case really.

I also feel that people should might as well think for themselves first, and stop pretending to be some problem solver who end up sticking their noses into someone's business like a busybody.

This society is filled with snobbish elitists and ostentatious SHEEPS.
I'd rather not get involved in them.

2011-03-21T21:29:00.000-07:00

A much needed improvement at last.
Compare to the horrible last sem results, this time my gpa increased by 1+
And it's kinda weird that my supposedly weakest subject(iptnet) actually got an A, whereas my stronger ones got either Bs or Cs.
A slight glimmer of hope?
I don't know.
But after seeing my average gpa, I still feel like wanting to kill myself.
I never thought my results would be so affected by my ongoing emotional troubles.
Maybe the medicine has worked this time.
It would be good if things stayed like this. Better still, if there would be a day where I don't have to rely on drugs.

I think people like me, are destined for solitude for life.

2011-03-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

I had about 2,3 interviews so far. No progress, I'd rather not waiting for their phone calls. Waste of time.
Seriously RE fucking sucks, along with other recruitment agencies.

They happily call you down for an interview like as if they have an incredible job offer to introduce you, but in fact, they still give you all the unwanted job options like telemarketing, packing and some factory work. arghh....

Fucking waste of time.
This is one classic example of it:

Recently, I sent a resume applying for a retail assistant job, the recruiter called me up saying that I'm qualified for the job and then arranged me for an interview during the next day.

So the following day, I take a trip all the way down to tampines to fill up the form and wait to be interviewed by my agent. When my turn came, I was looking forward to see what the job offer is about.

The agent introduced herself, so on... and interestingly,
this was the first question she asked,
"What type of jobs are you looking for?"

WTF???

I was fucking shocked, because it seems like she has forgotten that I have sent her a RESUME FOR THE RETAIL JOB.
But that's not the case, because she inform me that they have only PERMANENT positions available for the retail assistant job.
Seriously why is this piece of information not included in the job post?

If they know they're recruiting permanent staffs, they should have informed me during the phone call, instead of raising my hopes for nothing!

what a fucking travesty.

2011-03-10T07:01:00.000-08:00

I'm writing this to let yall know how my life has progressed so far,
so this is what I've done:

Firstly, I have been avoiding people(except my family) for quite some time.

Second, it's been ages since I've talked/chatted with people, because I hate doing so.

Third, I kinda enjoy isolating myself in my house without ever feeling lonely.

Next, every single day I would spend all my time using computer instead of doing something meaningful.

Next, I can't remember that last exact moment when I actually cared about relationships/friendships or socializing with other people.

Also, I have been cold towards everyone for quite some time, yet I'm not feeling anything about it.

Call me anti-social or schizoid, because this is what I'm turning into.
You can stay away and avoid me, I don't fucking care.
Just don't pretend as if you understand what I'm going through,
and save all the sympathy for yourself.

I'm already trying my best to help myself here.
So if you ain't contributing, just do yourself a favor, gtfo and stop being a bugger.

Don't ever think of judging my actions before getting to understand my intentions.

2011-02-27T22:05:00.001-08:00

Time to camwhore riao.

See that's moi Ah Girl.

Ah girl's interview and bio:

Name: Ah girl

Gender: Female

Hobby: Eat, sleep, chasing all the other cats away.

Cares about: Outlook and appearance! 100% cleanliness!
I cherish cleanliness to the extent whenever people touch moi i will always lick all the dirt away =)

Hates: Dirtiness! It yucks!! besides, i dun rike people carrying m0i cause their hands ish always dirty! I ish dun rike to make fren with other fellow kitty also!

Personality: Shy...Introverted... Arrogant! Lazy! Rike to sleep!

Meow!

2011-02-25T02:36:00.000-08:00

Overall, this exam has been so-so.....

Comments:

OOP - Not too good or bad...But I missed out on polymorphic arrays, output questions, and forgot some basic coding. Should be able to pass comfortably though..

Cmaths- Missed out some 2,3 mark question not related to forumlas. 10 marks gone at least, and could be a lot worse than I imagine. But should be able to pass.

IPTNET- 1 word..."LUCKY".
I almost left that entire 12 marks question blank, and besides I could barely attempt any of the IP addressing questions.
luckily the easy MCQ and structured questions made up for it, phew....

Overall...not as good as I expected.
I wanted to score some As and Bs to make up for the extremely horrible gpa last sem.
But it seems like I couldn't do it this time....
hopefully VB will help me achieve that next sem.

As for now, I just want to forget everything and enjoy my holidays, but most importantly, I need to find a job first......

2011-02-21T05:37:00.000-08:00

Seriously I might as well give up studies and get a new job,
it saves me so much trouble of having to revise and practise my work so many times just to suffer the same fate of scoring disappointing grades,
much like I did with cmaths just now.

Just give me a part-time job, I don't care if I'm being low-paid compared to others. I'll be happy if I can feed myself and afford those medications, that's all..
No need for big houses, luxury or happy family, and whatever kinda "typical social lifestyle" people led by themselves.

I'm gonna be really happy if I can quit school right now.
In fact, if I had the chance to do so without anybody's consent, I would do it right away.
Besides, there's barely anything in this class(1006) that makes me feel like being in a 2nd home anyway.
Adaptation and coping has never been such a struggle before.
Its best to leave and retire for good.

But the only thing that keeps me from making that decision is my closed ones. Because I would be owing an explanation to them as to why I'm quitting school, apart from that, I might be letting them down as well.
But I'm doing this for my own good, right? right?

So I hope to god, please let that day happen.

2011-02-17T05:09:00.001-08:00

Damnit...

Apart from flu, I think I'm gonna be suffering from a type of insomnia that's triggered by OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) soon.

I don't know why, I have this feeling sort of like an obsession of constantly mugging for exams non-stop until this entire thing is over.

It started when I begin to think of next week because it's when exam starts, and after that, I would hallucinate in my mind about all kinds of strange mathematical stuffs like formulas, tables.....and I would get all anxious & excited about it, next, I would take out my book, subconsciously reading all the formulas, imagining scenarios where I get stucked at a certain question and become all upset & worried with it.

This horrible problem bothers me so much until I couldn't even fall asleep!

but the good thing is, it goes off when I do something else apart from studying.

And I know some of you people mite think "Eh this person siao alr la!, get a doctor la!"
but welll..it seems like nothing will work at this point in time.

I'll just wait for exams to be over and see what's gonna happen after it.

2011-02-12T18:50:00.000-08:00

Best fking goal ever scored by Wayne Rooney. Damn I watch this over 30 times, and it still left me wanting more lol!

What a great time I had yesterday, staying up to watch BPL, marking out when each goal is scored, all just too damn awesome.
Nothing beats watching soccer really, its the best form of entertainment compared to the likes of the fake taiwan/korean/japanese drama series, emoistic romance shows, and not to forget the lame educational mediacock shows, arghh...!

Thank god, school is over. I can finally enjoy myself in these holidays.
And come back to think of it, I still can't come up with any memorable or interesting memories about school life though.
The only thing I can vaguely remember is that the people I met are mostly "academically driven muggers", or "conformists"
and besides, most of the things they talk about are assignments, grades, projects,
anything other than that will be... popular romantic shows, popular games like L4D, DOTA, CS, blackshot, blablabla....i'm gonna fall asleep.
Really, I don't think I can fit in with these people.

Even the ITE days are much better than the time spent on poly.
Maybe its because the students there are more open-minded, easy-going, cheerful and they tend not to play within the rules as well.
That's the good thing about them.

I'm not trying to judge who's good or who's bad here. But its all based on my 9 month experience in this poly module group.
personally I'd like to be around with people who are more accepting, warm and more open-minded.
hopefully I meet more of such people soon.

*I've been wanting to talk to her for a long time, but i just don't know what to talk...haiz*

2011-02-10T04:31:00.001-08:00

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Yesterday's post:

I think this is one of the most uncomfortable and tiring day I've ever experienced.
It's not because of school though... but this whole day I'm feeling like my body is not getting enough oxygen. Besides, I kept yawning all day long for no reason.
This all started after I woke up from sleep this morning. The exhaustion has been making me sick ever since then.
I'm desperately in need of rest. My body's totally fucked up.

And yea...
Its such a pity that yesterday I could've stayed up to watch some awesome soccer friendlies at 3am (Brazil vs France, Portugal vs Argentina, Germany vs Italy), but somehow I end up waking up at 1am, subconsciously trying to turn on the TV to watch soccer thinking that the time is 3am....
So, after realizing that there's still 2 hours left, I went back to sleep and never wake up until this morning....
What the fuck am I doing though. It's seems like my mind is also fucked up as well.

2011-02-09T03:24:00.000-08:00

Oh well..
This presentation only goes to show that I missed another chance to score good grades.
It had nothing to do with the way I present though(other than script). But the fault lies in the way I did my user interface. I could've done better than just 2 mere screens ._.

But never mind, since I choose to take the easy way out, then so be it.
Hope others don't mind though.

well...
To sump it all up, today is a pretty damn tensed up day, although I managed to relieve myself by smiling at random occasions (much like someone in my group) heheehhh...

And tbh, this is one of the better groups I've worked with. Its quite a pleasure to work with a team thats consist of mostly diligent, co-operative and academically inclined players heeheh... I hope to be like them in studies, but maybe i'm just too un-motivated to do it.

2011-02-07T04:52:00.000-08:00

Fucking hate one-dimensional people who judge and stereotype all the time.
It's like they're always seeing things from their point of view, and try to pass it off as a fact.
There's just too much of such people really.
Furthermore they dare to pass condescending remarks behind people's back, but ran away like a rat whenever they sees them.

Come on la, if you wanna understand more about people, why don't you just TALK to them instead of showing your insecurity by hiding behind and judge them like they owe you or something?

(I'm not referring to anyone who are quite close to me. Just some strangers who acts as if they know me well enough to treat me like dust)

Come on man anti me and i will still survive even when i am alone. i'm not afraid of the dark and when i am alone for too long u could feel the insecurity and fear that i am giving to you.....

2011-01-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

Feb 07 2011
CNY is over.

I had been having fun during the past few days.
And to summarise everything..

Firstly, there was nothing much during the eve of CNY, as it is about having reunion dinner & lao yu sheng in my grandma's house.

Next, the day 1 of CNY, my family and I went to pray at the temple at shenton way, after that, we visited relatives, gathered ang paos, and prepare for the celebration at my house nearby.
The event turned out to be awesome afterwards, everyone there gambled money in the public LOL, and played lottery game afterwards. Didn't win much though...Just $3,4.

Day 2, was all about steamboat dinner. Nothing much.

Day 3, went to hsin lu's house to gamble lol.
At first Jun xin and I happened to reach his house early(thanks to jx),
so there was no one else except 3 of us, and we did nothing much,
then slowly afterwards when louis, yk came, we started to gamble taidi, blackjack, I bet 50 cents all the way and won about $4-$5 lol...

I left at around 18:15 because my mum called me up saying that she's stucked outside the house without a key so I went back home and open the door for her.
**Ahh if it wasnt for her...I could've stayed there and gamble more haha**

All in all, it's quite fun to say the least.

But next week there's gonna be plenty of major things like presentation awaiting...

2010-12-28T01:13:00.000-08:00

Take a look at moi ah ger,

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2010-12-26T08:12:00.001-08:00

Spent the christmas weekend at JB with my relatives.

We shopped at the newly built KSL city, holiday plaza, and city square mall.

The one that caught my eye is the KSL city shopping centre,
the place has a vivo-city look to it, but they sell things at a reasonable cost.

There was a shop that sells men's wear at a cheap price, can't remember which one, i think it was E-zone or something. 2 men's bermudas for RM 60.0, and judging from it's design, the price is worth it i say.
So far i've gotten 2 of those and bought a red polo T.
Cost me less than > RM100.

i should of bought more perhaps.....

Apart from that, i would like say that the food junction at city square mall is kinda shitty
The place is so freaking warm and yet the food taste cold, furthermore, the seafood soup which my mum ordered was severely lacking in quantity, yet it cost RM7.
lol.

Overall it was an exhausting trip, but rather interesting one to say the least.

well....looks like 2010 is gonna end soon, everyone must be pretty excited for the celebrations it seems.

but for me, i have a feeling that year 2011 is gonna be another year of boring same old crap...

perhaps you might think i'm being pessimistic..but personally i won't delude myself into thinking: "2011, it's a brand new year! brand new life! all my troubles from 2010 will be vanished when 2011 comes!!!"
whereas deep down, you know its gonna be the SAME year where you mug like hell for good grades, MORE and MORE projects, getting mistreated & bitched for no good reason.
.....

please prove me wrong, i hope.

2010-12-20T17:16:00.000-08:00

....
I'm bored....
so i decided to search for some hokkien songs..

These are some of my favorites...

Hm...
Lets face it.
The common thing about all these songs is that they sound much better than most of the mainstream pop N crap we're getting.....

2010-12-19T23:04:00.000-08:00

Argh, i'm really starting to miss working CS during the saturdays and sundays.

It used to be pretty damn good when i can earn 7/hr by sitting down behind the counter, answering customer's simple questions, assisting them in registration, or even at times, joking with them.
But what a pity that it lasted only less than 2 months!
....
And right now, i find myself slacking alone at home without a job to work for,
this bores the fuck outta me because WORK is the only way I can find back the purpose in life again.

So come on,
please give me a decent part time job which i can work during the weekends or holidays....zz

2010-12-14T06:24:00.000-08:00

seriously just fuck it
i think i'm having the worst time of my life coping with this module so far.

especially this so called "innovation" project which has already turned out to be one big farce,
at first i thought i'm supposed to be studying something that makes sense and interesting,
but instead i find myself getting CHOKED OUT with chunks and chunks of java codes...

seriosuly what's so innovative about writing such programs and implementing it,
it's not like you're trying to invent something new or crafting a statue...
there's nothing meaningful about this topic at all.

but then, I really admire those who managed to understand those java codes.
It must have taken them lots of time and patience for sure....
maybe this module ain't about innovation afterall, it's more towards ADAPTATION perhaps....

well...for me, i don't think it's worth my entire life trying to sort out this whole meaningless virtual puzzle, yeah...furthermore it doesn't fit in with my interests and ambitions anyway.

no matter what, i just wouldn't imagine myself typing codes to earn a living.....

2010-12-09T04:13:00.000-08:00

Some people are forever biased and judgmental.

See, it goes like this....these fucktards no matter how friendly you treat them, they'll always try to find a flaw/fault in you and badmouth to others about it, worst of all, they have no guts to talk it straight to your face.

how fucking pretentious.

if i encounter such people doing such things, i'll be sure to stay FAR FAR AWAY from them as much as possible, even to the extent of changing workplaces or classes.

2010-12-08T03:43:00.000-08:00

A week of tests ahead...

So far attempted VS, java.

it was rather ok perhaps....(given that my expectations are low)

although i'm quite optimistic about the paper, but things aren't looking good... afterall i'd say there's 50% chance of getting a decent result like B or C.
haiya....
preparing for the worst ahead.

Is it laziness or bad attitude that caused me to be like this? A little bit perhaps...
well... I've already lacked any sort of motivation to work hard ever since i got into this course for the most part anyway...

At times i was wondering what could have happened if i chose to study accounting instead of IT...

but nonetheless, its kinda disappointing that i was forced to take this path instead of being given the means to choose.

*On a side note: Seems like i was being too harsh in writing a particular comment about someone. So, i would like to take those words back for "business" purposes,
however that doesn't take away my dislike for that person.

2010-12-07T04:47:00.000-08:00

fricking awesome chinese rock song right there.

2010-12-05T04:54:00.000-08:00

....
Doesn't seem like the cold symptoms is getting any better.
guess i'll have to take a few days MC again.
tsk,
this shit couldn't come at a better timing....

2010-11-08T01:34:00.000-08:00

LIverppol 2-0 Chelsea
Arsenal 0-1 Newcastle

damnit!
what a fortunate weekend for the red devils, *j.s park for the win*

i feel that it would be even better if Chelsea suffered the same result on their own turf Stamford bridge next time.

but nonetheless, this premier league race just got more exciting from here.

how i wish i have the BPL channels to watch though....

2010-11-06T05:24:00.000-07:00

The more problems you have the more you solve,
The more you solve the more solution you have,
the more solution you have create new problems.
So why solve?

2010-11-05T06:52:00.000-07:00

Back to blog.

so far things are more or less the same. nothing much happened here.

A recruitment agency employed me as a part-timer for a customer service job, so i just went along and from there,
my life revolved around work & earning sufficient cash for myself.

as for my studies,
not for long.
i'm still trying hard as possible to cope with new stuffs in my textbook as well as my assignments,
on the other hand, my projects & tests are doomed for sure.
so ya classmates, don't expect to see me in school often.
i'm better off working a part-time job anyway.

maybe i've becoming more adapted to isolation than ever before.
well, as others said, we shouldn't rely on people for happiness,
and this is the reason why i chose solitude,
besides....
there's hardly anyone who bother to care or understand us anyway, people're just too busy occupied with themselves and their own personal interests.

so, i have finally come to the conclusion that people are out there only for the sake of themselves.
being selfish is the only way to go.

i may sound a bit negative here, but it's true based from experience.

2010-09-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

Not that it matters but...

90mins:
Everton 1-3 Man utd

Fulltime:
Everton 3-3 Man utd

Wtf is this....wt heck evans and the rest of defenders doing?

And then.....

Barca 0-2 Hercules

Speechless.
What a bad weekend for football.

2010-09-10T03:31:00.000-07:00

Damn i kinda develop a liking for this song and its lyrics, despite that crappy little techno music running in the background.
but unfortunately, this is the only decent track in their new album "A thousand suns", the rest are crap.

"Waiting for the end" is just a thousand times step down from "In the end" though....

2010-09-08T05:23:00.001-07:00

Scribbled my last java paper (Y)

(not exactly scribble though..just answers full of glibberish)

seriously, i have no intention of learning programming in the first place...
everything inside java is all too alien for me.
....

nevermind anyway,
looks like i'll have to come back to study this module some other time, hopefully during when i feel like doing it haha.

okay enough of that.

5 weeks of holidays ahead,
i'm gonna use it to take a well-deserved rest and also look for job opportunities to save up some cash..

yeah, that's pretty much it
nothing fun about my life anyway.

2010-09-08T04:35:00.000-07:00

I'm on the highway to hell...
ta dada, dada...
highway to hell....

2010-09-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

lol...
I never thought that the exam prep questions in IT1209 website actually came out in this evening's paper! thank god....i memorise and answer most of it correctly with some mistakes ;)

now, only if java had a IT1111 web guideline of its own, i will wholeheartedly dedicate my whole day revising it, and who knows i can get a B, C.....

But heck, regardless of which grade, i will probably be forced to re-take java,or drop it next sem anyway.

as a matter of fact, my mind just won't absorb robotic languages, let alone practising java _|_

2010-08-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

2 more to go....
as usual, i will probably end up dreaded on revising, because the outcome would always turn me off no matter what, especially that wretched module known as java..

heh,
i've grew sick of my current hair outlook,
these few weeks i might be getting my hair dyed.

2010-08-28T06:47:00.000-07:00

so....
what's life have in store for me now?
.....

i guess my next few months are gonna be spent on work, in fact i actually plan on getting a part/full time job since day 1....
this ain't just an attempt to earn some money but gain experience as well, and more importantly......
distance myself away from studies.

and speaking of studies,

exams are coming in less than 5 days, and i don't think any amount of study time will prevent me from falling harder.

maybe, just maybe, i will dedicate 1,2 days revising on those stuffs, thats it.

whatever happens,
just let it be.

2010-08-28T06:19:00.000-07:00

_________________________________________________________________________

at last its over...

these few weeks of term break, i actually spent it on working a temporary job at a industrial park in alexandra.
the duties are quite easy though...just testing hp printers using computers and touchscreen phones.

$5.50/hour for that doesn't sound half bad at all, despite disadvantages like travelling time and transport fees which can be quite a problem though...

also, it's great getting to know a few colleagues there, two of them are from nyp...
our first day of work we hit it off pretty well with each other,
we share some common interests & hobbies, had lunch together every afternoon..
what better way to get rid of the boredom and loneliness there.

yesterday was the last day of work, and i shall take this oppurtunity to thank the people there for the treat, especially dominic, jun jing & louis, si ting.

it was a great experience nonetheless....

2010-08-05T02:13:00.000-07:00

Hey roman, sheikh, please watch this CAREFULLY:

This is something that arab money & russian ruble cant buy.

2010-08-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

___________________________________________________________________

Everytime i hear that same damn thing repeating over and over again.

but do they understand?
do they even care about what i'm feeling right now?
Can't they stop viewing things from their OWN biased perspective?

if the same old shit continues like this,
id rather them to gtfo right now.
they shouldn't act like they really care while they're not even trying.
always assume, judge and jump to conclusions......
what a bunch of irritants.....

2010-07-30T04:25:00.000-07:00

2 types of people I fucking want to get rid of most.

1) foul-mouthed bitches who probably spends his/her entire life condescendingly criticizing/badmouthing people just to boost his own ego and confidence.

2)inconsiderate people who only knows how to JUDGE & ASSUME people's decisions without taking any form of initiative to get to know them. (Come on la, at least understand their intentions before they pass any retarded form of judgment against them. )

.....

if there's an opportunity for me to screw them up, i will make them GTFO from my life.

i'm tired of seeing egoistic FUCKTARDS who finds fault with others just because that particular person somehow doesn't meet their expectations in terms of usefulness, looks, behaviour, social status and the list goes on.........

it fucking sickens me to hear someone getting wrongly accused for such a stupid reason.

....
why do i still see such fucktards appearing in front of me?

2010-07-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

.

i'm gonna do whatever it takes to revive the lifeless soul in me back, even if it requires an overdose of pills or medicine

theres got to be some sort of solution to unload this presence of burden from everyone.

2010-07-23T06:52:00.001-07:00

there's nothing to see here.

he is completely irrelevant.

2010-07-21T02:02:00.001-07:00

lost it.

out of sight,
out of mind,
out of control,

apologies if i have caused a lot of trouble/offense to everyone,
i cant helped it at all.

almost everything i see is the source of frustration & anxiety at the moment...

this corrupted mind has completely lost it.

2010-07-20T03:05:00.001-07:00

Hell yeah... the new fifa 10 server rocks!

Dream team (Y)

before the match.....

Bought hundred over star players for just 1 cash only lol....

2010-07-20T01:59:00.000-07:00

2010-07-19T03:46:00.000-07:00

Cant really tahan some pple...hmph.....

seriously, what's their problem with me being quiet???
its part of my personality & i kinda like it what, come on....

why do some people diao me like as if i'm being "arrogant", "too shy" or whatever fuck they can even think of?

At least unlike some NAGGY & "lor-sor" people, i'm more direct, straightforward leh.

if people detest me for being so quiet, at least come and talk to me lah, don't pcw behind me.

i can be very talkative if you want me to,
some people still won't like it for sure.

since it's so hard to please everybody at once,

i might as well don't give a fuck....

2010-07-13T04:05:00.000-07:00

School was okay despite the fact that I spend most of my lesson time at the laptop & daydreaming instead of paying full attention to class.
lol...

last weekend, i watched two of my favorite teams Spain & Holland clashed at the world cup final, and guess what?

it turned out to be quite an awful match!
There were 47 fouls committed altogether by both teams, with 28 from the dutch due to poor, missed-time tackles, not only that, they also suffered 8 yellow cards & a red.
as a supporter of netherlands, i would say that their approach to this game was very uncharacteristic and disappointing..

why would an attacking-minded team with players like Robben, Sneijder, Van der vaart, Kuyt, Huntelaar, adopt such an overly cautious & violent tatic all of sudden?

holland should be constantly pressing spain up front instead of building a 9 man stonewall defense while waiting for a chance to counter-attack

anyway, i'm glad to see a deserving team like Spain come out on top in the end although they could have done that without going through extra time...

Lost & Found....

Heres the -------> LINK

if anyone in Yishun found this kitten, please leave a message..
thanks.

2010-06-30T02:14:00.001-07:00

swee la.
programming, IWEBPJ javascript, cmaths all cui liao.
And despite the fact that i did passed some of them, i still didn't manage to save my overall marks from going down.

seems like my time in poly might not be for long if this continues.
well, i never really had the mood to study after graduating from ite anyway.
it would be better if i'm being set free from all those assignments and projects.

2010-06-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

Is it logical to hold on to something which he/she had no interest in?
the answer is an obvious no.

but now.. judging from the way things are going at the moment.
i guess its "never say never",
maybe i would be more open-minded about it.

apart from that...
i just hope that some people would try to be more considerate by minding their own business, instead of trying to influence/psycho people over their decisions.

...

okay, time to have some fun!
FOL2 here i come

2010-06-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

kns, the first few matches of wc didn't start off very well so far.

france 0-0 uruguay
argentina 1-0 nigeria
ENGLAND 1-1 USA thanks to robert green.
slovenia 1-0 algeria, ANOTHER GOALKEEPING ERROR KNS.

the only decent result by far is...
south korea 2-0 greece.

it seems like most of the teams are having a bad goal drought in south africa,
they played like shit in terms of passing, movement, going forward.

furthermore i'm really starting to believe that the annoying bees
(aka THE ALL MIGHTY vuvuzela trumpet) from south africa are responsible for this.

and the worst thing is that even the players & fans are getting affected by the stupid bee noise lor.

i really wonder how does it feels like to be a spectator there when some niggers keep blowing peeee por peee por beside your ears non-stop.

Feel the power of the all mighty vuvuzelahhhhhh!!!!!

2010-06-12T04:50:00.000-07:00

Wooo,
i'm watching world cup channel in moi comfy living room now.

Can't wait to catch england & argentina matches later!

2 weeks from now on, every night's gonna be fantastic....
ITS WORLD CUP FEVER MAN!

Come on everyone, lets support Holland, Argentina, Spain, South Korea & ENGLAND together!

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

2010-05-25T04:26:00.000-07:00

Alright...
just got rid of the "trash" aka professional image presentation....

seems like my speech has improved this time as compared to the last,
just that i have to stop relying on scripts, and lean more towards on audience interaction, haha.

Been thinking a lot as of late, and even at times i'm starting to get a bit temparamental over minor issues.

Seems like these few days ain't gonna be easy for me, i guess.

Plenty stuffs to focus & remember, but end up forgetting things, and then tio scolding by some naggy & self-assertive people.

kns, give me a break, for fucks sake.

2010-05-24T06:22:00.000-07:00

Woohooo CC(club compy) started
time to chiong FOL2 again!

huahuahua....

2010-05-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

The long awaited champions league final is finally over!
inter 2-0 bayern.
the best team won.

but more importantly, this match is without a doubt one of the most
boring champions league final ever.

both teams didn't make it this far by playing attacking football,
they got through by either parking their bus for whole of 90mins, or, scoring "tyco" goals.

however, Mourinho is smart though....
he picked a defensive 4-3-3 formation and let the opposition do all the attacking. but who would have thought that it actually paid off for inter in the end. hmmm...

on the other hand, i dont think bayern lose this match at all,
because they still come out looking strong regardless of the outcome and possibly re-gain back their top European status.

the only club which lose out is the one who sold Robben and Sneijder to both of these teams.
lol.

2010-05-21T03:07:00.000-07:00

......

A number of things happened during this busy week.

maybe i won't go on and explain further in detail with those.....furthermore its not a pretty issue to touch on with.

Expectations are increasing and assignments are piling up,
i can't afford to be making mistakes in the slightest.

even at times, i have to remind myself that
"this ain't ITE days anymore, you're competing in a much higher level compared to the past.."

indeed, and because of this, i have been trying to cut down on activities like fifa online, late night outings and long hours of sleeping.

but it ain't working as of yet, my mind is still straying further away from studies.

so now....
guess i'm all set for a rude awakening by lecturers or by parents.

huahuahua!1111

anyway i'm in no mood to continue any further in this post,

just looking to clear off all these negative thoughts, and start all over again with a focused & motivated mind, thats all.

2010-05-20T02:26:00.001-07:00

What a busy week,
revision, tests, make-up lessons, projects, html...
all must be done by this week.
hmph.

Earlier this morning m0i just went for this:

*ish abit blur*

see the date 20/5/2010, 11:30.

i went there, did a series of tests for blood glucose,
in the end it took me 2 hours to settle everything(including queueing up, waiting for results, listening to nurse & doctor's advice, collection of medications, lunch), and by the time the whole thing finished, i'm already 1hr 40min late for lesson, so i attend the last DCN tutorial instead.

lastly,
before someone starts to nag at me of something that i'm ALREADY AWARE OF:

i acknowledge the fact that this is already the 10++ times i've been late for lesson.
and next time i'll try to be punctual kay?

yawns...its time to go back and revise cmaths nao...
*reluctant*

2010-05-17T05:41:00.001-07:00

Finally ar.....

I just figured out how to make use of both the CSS and html codings to create a decent webpage,
what a relief...
and lucky for me, i didn't miss out a lot from today's lessons just because of the appt earlier.

But,
hmph...
Tomorrow is gonna be a long-ass day,
cmaths, presentation skills, data and crap.....
can't believe i'm gonna sit through 5 hours of lectures for all of that.
yawnssssss.

maybe at a certain point of time, their lectures are gonna nag at me for not taking my work seriously lol...

.....

okayokay,
from now onwards, i will be a good boy, attend school without missing a lesson and do my work regularly.
(=

2010-05-14T03:21:00.000-07:00

Earlier this morning, i skipped tutorial and instead went to meet a few of my online friends, Aaron and 2 others for a chilling session at sembawang blk 300++ void deck, and later makan lunch at the foodcourt in sun plaza till abt 1pm,

then i made my way to sch for the last lesson.
shiok...

this evening, i got back my results for the first ever C maths test.
got 9/20, hmph... i was expecting a lot lower than this.

C/A maths is my most detested subject amongst everything else,
in fact i would prefer java, html, MS office, mySQL to anything thats related to A-maths.. heck, i even kinda like E-maths too.
lol.
well, its time to get started on computer maths i suppose zzzzz...

anyway...all in all,

this line sumps up my thoughts of the week,

"Aiya heck care la!"

huhu,
sometimes ignorance is the best way to avoid unwanted thoughts..

2010-05-11T22:43:00.000-07:00

4th week of poly liao.
projects and presentations are starting to pile up in only a few days.
i'm starting to feel the stress now, huhu.

So, today is the first day of group presentation,
see what i wore??
a FULL BLACK POLO-T and dark LONG SCHOOL PANTS,
and guess what.. i'm the only one who dress like that in a presentation rofl.
special huh? anyway..

i just don't see the need to wear a long-sleeved formal attire unless i'm attending a grand or high-class event.
but since poly forced me to buy formal wear so no choice lor.
time to go shopping for clothes liao.... zzzzzzzz -____________________-

okay... back to topic, so far i have been doing web app project with a big group that consists of Jin xin, Catherine, Gui ying, Xue xiang and Charlene.

hmm.... this is like a new experience for me because for the past 6 years in school, i have never being teamed up with girls in every projects before.
so this is the first time i'm working with 4 girls & 1 guy in a group assignment =]
i guess it would be interesting to see how things go from here.

today's presentation turns out to be slightly ok for me, except that i kinda lost my focus on some of the presentation slides, and a few "erms" along the way.
so, there is some practising for me to do lol.

And for the 2nd time in 3 weeks, i'm gonna head to TTSH next monday for an urgent medical appt.
i wonder what it is....

2010-04-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

2010-04-13T05:03:00.000-07:00

Damn suay,

i wasted 2 hours travelling to CMPB by bus ONLY to know that the office closed 20mins ago.
HAHAHAHA.

nvm
i shall defer tomorrow, then.

day 1 settled.

two more days left, LOL.

Gogo manutd, go beat manshitty rofl

2010-04-12T19:15:00.000-07:00

This is getting troublesome,

Today trip to CMPB and nyp for submission of forms.

Tomorrow trip to Clementi and nyp for collection of student card and stuffs.

Thursday trip to nyp for collection of tutorial materials.

wahrao eh, why can't everything be made into one day?